Tag: Buddhism

[3]: Skeptic’s Mantra.

When I first began the poems that I loosely bind by the title “I miss the old, blue sky” in 2013, I intended to express my unending wonder at and reverence for the small moments of beauty that you find everywhere in nature: wind across cold water, sunlight twinkling around leaves, the gentle lives of those unobserved. But I found all these things to be deeper, more difficult to grasp than I imagined, once I looked into them.
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it is cruel & gruesome to speak of knowing
and a harsher sin still to know –
the grains in wood
are not going anywhere, but wherever
together they go;

a kiss
through the eye
& back again

[2]: for Alan, once.

This is a poem I wrote in 2013, when I was thirstily reading and listening to everything I could find produced by Buddhist teacher and intellectual jester Alan Watts. One night, I dreamt that Alan and I sat in a treehouse from my childhood, playing an odd harp, composing ad hoc limericks, shanties, and meditations.

This poem is not lifted from or referring to that dream. It is more like a letter thanking him for his company upon waking.
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before I was
told & taught to eat sleep sin fuck talk walk grin think look see
& look away (& how) – to say ah and
say I, I
pumped my heart, I
grew my hair, I
shaped my bones, I
bit my teeth, bit
the words “my teeth,” chewed,
swallowed &

became, through careful study,
only what I permit myself –

this time &
every time.